Thinking of our Angel

I am not sure why but for atleast a month now I have been recollecting the birth of Briana Imad Jaber. How much I still miss her, and how blessed I feel to have known her for the short nine months that I selfishly wouldn't give to anyone else. I was able to feel her life and energy that no-one else knew. We gave her the middle name of Imad so she would take something of her daddy with her. I wanted him to have that attachment. The day we lost our sweet angel was the single worst day I think I have ever experienced. We are not supposed to bury our children and yet there I was a young mother planning my baby's funeral. The healing process started from that moment and still continues today. I think of her everyday, I love her more than words can express and yet I only knew her for the nine months I was so blessed to have been pregnant with her. I carried her and knew her for a lifetime her lifetime. Briana Imad Jaber was one of my greatest blessing's. She taught me more in her short little life time, she is my blessed angel. She taught me to live, love and laugh everyday. She taught me that there is something positive in everything even the lowest times in our lives have something positive. She made me be a better mother and wife. I feel privledged to be the mother of someone too perfect for this earth.

Briana would be looking forward to her 18th birthday on 6/20/2010. She would have been preparing for graduation anad college in the Fall. She looked just like her sister as a baby and I often wonder what she would look like today. Would she have cheered like her younger sister or maybe she would have been like her mom and been the athletic type involved in sports. Would she have been a mommy's girl too or would she have attached herself to her daddy? What would her favorite color be, or her favorite food?

What I do know is she was beautiful. She is an angel, my angel, our angel. Imad and I love her and miss her. Ali remembers all of the events from that time in our lives. He is an amazing older brother and son! Jasmine has been told everything we know to help her understand she was blessed to have an older sister. Jasmine and Ali have a fun, close relationship. They are best friends :) They make us laugh everyday and remind us how blessed we are to have each other! Families are forever, and I do believe we will be together again someday. Until then I live life, I enjoy life and I live for what I do have not for what I don't. I am grateful God blessed me to give birth to one of his sweet Angel's.